Almost Graduated

Right now I am laying on Sean’s bed and waiting for us to go to El Vacaro to meet Matt and eat some good food cause I’m starving. Anyways, it’s Spring Break and I believe if everything is going right which I think it is my graduation is only a quarter away. Now I have to think about what to do after school. Matt has been talking about how he is going to get a teaching job in Japan and it sounds so fun that even Julie and I have been throwing that idea around too for a little while. I mean, staying in Japan for just one year ain’t so bad right? I mean it won’t be as bad as I went there last time because this time I will have Julie and actually someone to talk to and hang out with. I don’t know I should check my last entries on the blog about what I felt about Japan because I’m afraid that I forgot the reason why I didn’t like it and that I will realize why I didn’t like it when I get there and be unhappy about it again.

My grades were great this quarter. I got a C in the Cinema history of art class, that class was so fucking boring. I fell asleep through about all the movies I believe and totally skipped many of the classes because they were at 9:30 in the morning on a Tuesday and Matt Sean and I go to Ugly Tuna’s on Mondays for their dollar pitcher happy hour and get wasted. Anyways, the teacher talked so much bullshit about how the directors sought to portray some kind of meaning in the shot or something like that but I don’t believe it. We also had to identify styles of shot like montage and panning and things like that, but the thing is that all directors were using it in their movies and so we would just say the same damn thing for each movie. Man that class was so boring, but what made it even worse was the grading nazi TA that I had. After I studied really really hard and memorized alot and learned alot to prepare myself for the first exam and I got only a C+, I said fuck this and I didn’t try hard with the other tests and I just studied the night before.

This is about the time that Sean said, “ok well let’s go” to el vacaros. I saved this as a draft and went downstairs to put on my coat and shoes so we could go there. I waited downstairs for ten or more minutes looking at the fish tanks while he was upstairs. I even yelled for him to hurry up. Finally, like after 15 minutes I hear him yell “cya later” and hear him walking down the stairs. He sees me standing at the bottom there with a surprised look and a not so happy look on my face. I tell him I was waiting there since he said let’s go and that I would appreciate it if he didn’t say “cya” everytime we were going somewhere together and that he would rather say something like “hey I’m going let’s go” or something like that. Anyways later on we have a fight at the bar because he didn’t want to pay for the third pitcher when he said he would. Matt left because we were fighting and blamed me, but Matt doesn’t get it. For some reason he thinks Sean pays more than I at the bar which is just not true. Also Andrew left his 360 at his friends house after being there two days and which I was surprised about, the day after I buy a year of live.

Ok back to the grades. Got a B+ in peace studies, A in geography, and A- in history 597.

I’ve been looking over my old Japanese books and listening to the CCs, and I’m asking myself whether I really want to jump into all of this again. I’ve forgotten alot, and when I remembered all of it more than a year ago I still felt I didn’t know enough. I’m really starting to remember the reason why I didn’t like Japan was because I didn’t like speaking a different language. If that’s the case, Julie and I shouldn’t go there. But we’ll see, if I can convince myself it’s just a year and for resume and job reasons, maybe it will be ok. But at the same time, I don’t want Julie to be scared there because she doesn’t know how to say anything. Aw man.