5-19-06

Well I learned something last night. There truly is such a thing as a cock block, I mean, I know they existed but I never experienced one myself until last night. Julie and I played racquetball at the rpac. We had decided that I could stay at her place for the night, sleep with her. Incredible. But, Matt messages me and asks if i’m drinking at his house. That sounds like a good idea so I convince Julie to come drink with me at Matt’s.

Then I say, “Hey, how about we invite Taka?”

Now I knew that that could possibly be a cock block opportunity. But I felt secure enough with Julie that she would still stick to the plan even if Taka came. Taka wasn’t even going to come, we had to convince him to come by having Julie call him and talk sweet talk like to him.

Well during the drinking games and what not he pulls his tricks to make himself look good. We played red apples green apples and julie and him were constantly agreeing on each others cards. Now that I look back on it I honestly think that he was cheating and looking at which card was Julie’s the whole night. When Julie would pick his card, he would wait awhile to build dramatic affect and then say in a fake surprise, “oh, that’s my card”. Pissed me off so much still does.

We’re walking back home and we get near my room and they say see you later, I wasn’t ready to split up at all Julie said earlier about walking her home. I said, “Wait, aren’t I going to walk you home?”, and Taka said “What?” like I was an idiot, like I was completely stupid like it came out of the blue like I was dumb for trying like that and that I didn’t have a chance. She said “Actually, that’s o.k. you don’t really have to” and then I just stopped and said “dammit” and she laughed and said “yeah” laughing and that was how we split. I’m so fucking mad about that. Well I learned something about this…

Even if you think it would be fun with your friends and it would be…
NEVER EVER EVER FUCKING CALL ANOTHER GUY AND INVITE HIM TO HANG OUT WITH YOU AND THE SAME GIRL YOU LIKE EVER…EVEN IF IT’S YOUR FRIEND…BECAUSE HE WANTS THE SAME THING AS YOU AND HE’LL TRY HIS BEST TO MAKE YOU LOOK BAD AND HIM GOOD.

I’m so pissed. I’m pretty sure that if he wasn’t there she would have ended up spending the night in my room like planned. Fuck, so stupid. I don’t know how I can bring up the idea again…