5-17-06

Because if I miss one more chinese class I lose half a letter grade, I had to skip Chinese 251 for the first time today to attend a individualized instruction by Southerland laoshi. I was actually pretty nervous about the meeting because I had never had Southerland before and because she is american. I was really afraid that she would hear my off-tones and notice my lack of listening and speaking skills and think I was really stupid. Instead, the class went really well and it had made me realize how much I had actually learned so far taking chinese, that I was actually learning even though it doesn’t really feel like it.

Before this though I went to the union to study and I saw Misa. She said the others were there too like Mark, Kyle, and Sakiko so I decided to break down and eat with them. The conversation was o.k., Kyle talked alot about t.v. and movies that no one has seen. I wonder if he realized no one watches that stuff anymore? I think it’s because he lives at home and so the likeliness of watching those kinds of things is higher.

Taka and I had dinner at Kennedy. The conversation between us tonight was much better than the ones as of late. It turns out Taka still has feelings for Julie… That’s not such a good thing to have one of your best friends like the same girl as you. It’s bad that we met Julie so late in the year but it’s also good at the same time because then good friends like Taka and I won’t be fighting and competing over the same woman. What an excessive amount of stress that is, seriously.

Taka took up her countdown to, on Taka’s MSN:

23 days left…still sick

At the rpac Julie and I played a game of pool before leaving. She is really cute. It is still hard to talk to her. I really really want to be myself around her but at the same time I try to be witty and funny. But if I were to be myself around her then we wouldn’t even talk because there wouldn’t be anything for us to talk about that would be on topic. I think it’s that we assume what the other of us is thinking and doing so we don’t have to ask or comment on something because we already know what it would be.

But you know what why should I try to act “fake” around her? I don’t do it to anyone else so why should I do it to the only person that I really respect?

So from now on I won’t

Hmmm.. anyways…

I’m going to try to get as close as possible to her before the end of the school year, I’m not going to let such a beautiful woman both by attitude and looks just slip by.